Looking at Life

I sit at my desk writing and looking out over the trees from my windows. Every time that I sit in my office and I have the opportunity to communicate with Nature, I am challenged to stay on purpose and write. I get overwhelmed with the energy of going out to play in the dirt. I love this piece of property with its rows of majestic trees, beautiful green grass, and sweeping lawn. It is my favorite home since I was a child living in Illinois. The beauty of this land is the peace and joy of the wildlife, flowers, trees, and water. I find a lot of peace when I work with flowers and growing bushes, that present me with flowers every now and then. We are all a part of Nature, and the sooner we come to this very accurate definition of ourselves, the sooner we will realize the gift to our body when we eat organic foods, drink pure water, and have trees and bushes around us to purify the air that we breathe.

Because I spend so much time writing, I can become very tired of the entire process. Right now I am working on two books about NDP, which I am planning on using for my classes that I am starting soon. NDP is Neural Depolarization, which is a therapy that I taught myself as a small child who was constantly living in intense pain from rheumatic fever that I have had since infancy. I told my parents that I was going to become a nurse when I was two years old and very sick with rheumatic ever. Since it was my absolute intention to become an R.N., I also had to learn how to heal myself. My rheumatic fever was intense when I was a child, and of course the drug industry in the 1930s was very different than it is today. I healed my rheumatic fever with healthy foods, fresh air, and hard work, and I did become an R.N., which I expanded on as time passed and my children became adults.

One of the primary therapies that I used to heal my rheumatic fever was Neural Depolarization, pure fresh water from our natural well, and fresh organic foods. I had an older sister, Jane, that I was very close to in age and we lived our lives by roaming all over the acres of pastures and woods on our Illinois farm. We missed nothing. We sometimes even dared to visit the rattlesnake dens that joined our farm, which of course was strictly forbidden. We also had a Cahokian Mound on our farm, which my father set aside an revered. For many years my father collected artfacts and we stored them in an unused cabinet. We never locked our house even when we planned to be gone sometimes for a month or more at a time. My parents always said that if someone needed something badly enough to steal it, they needed it more than we did, and they would go forward without any complaints.

As I aged I began to realize that my NDP and my intense physical activity was improving my joint and body pain. When I realized that no one could stop my joint pain, I made up my mind to walk and play as much as I could as part of my own therapy to help myself heal. I did realize that exercise was beneficial for my pain and although inactivity hurt less, it did less to make my pain subside. Sometimes the differences were subtle but over all my body felt better with exercise, therefore I was relentless with myself. I would always remember that running, jumping and swimming were good for me, when I felt like I could not even move, let alone get out of bed and go to school. But I went to school every day and we walked just a little over four miles through the country in the morning and evening and the weather did not allow us to stay at home.

Chemical Memories and Our Nervous System

All learning is motion and change. All motion and change are perfection. Perfection is the energy in which we live and evolve. Once we begin to understand the knowledge of how we have learned, we begin to change even more with the knowledge of who we are, which allows us to change how we are now choosing to learn with knowledge by shifting our conscious mind from external thinking to the internal focus of thinking. The knowledge that we are chemical sensory beings, helps us to understand why we remember and how we use our memory in our dual soul evolution. All memories are chemical memories and are there within our conscious mind, emotions, and senses for us to access once we accept who we are. We cannot access loving memories from our subconscious fearful mind. Our fears are all stored in the subconscious mind. Our loving memories are stored in our conscious mind, loving emotions, physical cells, and sensory memory. We will use an accumulation of our memory sources to focus the three-dimensional whole picture within our conscious mind.

In shifting our conscious thinking mind from the external to the internal focus, it is important that we never make ourselves wrong in the journey of our dual soul. We have lived as we have needed to live, to learn what we need to learn, therefore every aspect of our historical past has been valuable because we have learned what we don’t want as well as some aspects of our life that we do want. Life today is far from perfect because of the attitude of the human species. Our focus is intensely directed toward the external technology of science instead of towards our thinking, loving emotions, and feelings about life and other people. Once we can see ourselves as human cells in the body of nature, earth, and the universe, we will be more capable of understanding how we live within our source of spirit consciousness to influence ourselves and everyone else in their individual function. The human species is a whole spirit consciousness acting together as the source and function of our dual soul and spirit in physical life. As we live our multiple lives, we store our memories as chemicals within our Primary Nervous System and all of the other nervous systems that our spirit consciousness is enfolded within.

When we are continuing to live in fear, we should pay attention to how we think and the expectations that we have toward life, other people, and ourselves. If we are consistently waiting for something negative to happen to us or the people that we love, then we are very obviously living in fear, which means that our subconscious ego mind is resisting and denying our loving female emotions and spirit senses. Our fears will swing, to and fro, and our external perception and interpretation of life within every aspect of our physical reality and all of the human species will be influenced, therefore each individual influence will have a dramatic accumulative effect on our physical, mental, emotional, and sensory health and happiness as a human species. These fears have become the source of many spacetime continuums for our dual soul. As we live through each spacetime continuum, we evolve toward the “point of knowledge” where we will have the internal power, strength, and courage to shift into our internal mind focus of spirit consciousness.

Fear that is present within our subconscious mind permeates every aspect of our multi-cellular structure. Fear produces two primary hormones, ACTH and Cortisol, that affect us and our response to the physical experiences of our lives. The production of these hormones is automatic when we are living in fear. When we think in any concept of fear, we produce the hormones without any awareness that we are doing so, but our lack of conscious awareness of what we are doing does not interfere with the damage that we create within our body. When we became addicted to our superstitions and myths as our religious beliefs, we challenge ourselves to have the strength and courage to pull ourselves out of our quagmire of addictive beliefs and behaviors. Now, as a dual soul, we are face to face with our own imaginary ghosts, demons, devils, gods, and evil spirits, and no one but us can pull ourselves out of these imaginings and see the miracle of who we are.